It is just over a year since ASD Mummy with issues was born. I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my ramblings. I am truly humbled everytime I see my stats. My writing is purely about me and for me, so when I am told things I say mean something or are relatable it makes me very proud.
Writing a blog was something I never imagined I would do as I find spelling so difficult and without spell checker, I readily admit nobody would understand what I am trying to say – even with it I am sure it doesn’t always make sense.
I started writing to help myself when I hit rock bottom a couple of years back. I had a wonderful Gp who helped as much as she could but the waiting list for counselling was so long I was advised I needed someone I could talk to. I had nobody! The people around me were great but I am a closed person as talking about my feelings isn’t something I am comfortable doing. I read other blogs and thought while I felt I had nothing others would read it was a way of letting my feelings. I was very angry and upset with the world and this came out it what I wrote. I got into a lot of trouble with the school as I was over honest with how i felt about the way the boys had been treated. It resulted in me being called to the heads office and told many teachers were worried about the things I had said! I was mortified I had caused upset to anyone. It had never been my intention to do that. I instantly deleted everything I had written and wanted to crawl into a hole. It really depressed me. I became very withdrawn.
After a few weeks I realised writing had helped me to organise my thoughts. I decided I would come back and think carefully before I pressed publish.
The difference being able to let things go was amazing. I felt better and if nobody read me it didn’t matter, my writing was for me.
A year on, and I have many people who regularly interact with me. I have learned a lot as a result of writing.
I will continue to ramble as I see fit. Please say hello, and comment if you want to. It’s good to know you’re there. Thank you x